I think it might be that time again.
I'm getting butterflies.
I absolutely love those flickers of when you think you're interested in someone. The last time I fell for someone, I crash landed. It came out of nowhere and, to be honest, I've finally recovered from it. To have a slower spark is a bit of a relief. I'm also a pretty impulsive person, so having time to sort things out probably isn’t the worst thing for me.
Here's the problem of the hour: while the new guy is pretty much perfect on paper, that's my problem. In other words, it's hard to believe that its going to work out and I am going to be happy in a relationship for once in a long while. I know its cliche to say "I've been hurt so many times before" but I don't care because for this girl, its truer than any person on this planet, friend or foe knows.
I'm more than ready to let go, and take the leap, to trust someone again, and believe, but the bar is set pretty high to obtain my trust and love. Trying to hop over it isn't going to be easy. In the meantime, I'm going to bask in the warm fuzziness of butterflies and the endless possibilities of what might be.. Reality.
-Siti Mariam Ulfa
